I think how? Then i look around and see nobody’s coming to my rescue and i just need help not a rescue. Not to be told what to do. I think it’s just getting old for lots
To feel so sure God has a path for you, to help others like me. Then i think what a fool, you are nothing and i’m not effective at anything now. Nobody listens to me, i seem to bother people more. It’s hard to quit, to throw in and accept my life will be surviving off minimal and alone. It doesn’t seem like living but what can i do. It’s gonna suck, i can’t even ask God for more. or from family because it’s not help and i can’t be dependent nothing. I am starting to feel like i need to shut up, and accept i’m alone and screwed. i’m very sad, disappointed in people but also doubting everything about myself and what I’ve been through and God‘s gonna have to help me again or I just I don’t know how I’m making it and I’m so tired. Like I can’t even I’m supposed to go to the doctor for blood work and stuff I can’t even get out of bed. I have been well you know what what’s the matter what’s the matter if I do physical therapy and doctors people are so fucked. They don’t have money in this country and we don’t do there enough. We do the wrong things and I’m not talking about for me. I feel bad for other peoplebecause it’s very hard and a lot of people have. I feel like I have nothing but I know there’s people with less than me so I have something as much as I don’t like it.
it’s almost amazing how people run from me how people turn from me and on me a few people have seen me for a little bit like on here some of you specifically Mark he gave me money couple times others of you too. I don’t want money but like I have the best nonprofit that I need help with and it’s a pretty great investment I think.
If the people who run our systems were truly honest, they’d admit this:
they’ve made life so hard for so many people that “choice” starts to disappear.
When survival becomes suffering, offering an exit isn’t compassion — it’s a way to avoid fixing what’s broken.
A society that makes life unbearable and then calls death a solution isn’t merciful. It’s irresponsible.
Verse — Psalm 34:18
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
Interpretation:
This verse isn’t about weakness — it’s about wounds. God draws near not to the loud, the proud, or the untouched, but to those whose spirits are worn down by pain, grief, and compassion for suffering they can’t ignore.
My Voice / What This Is for Me:
My body has been hurt, and my soul feels exhausted from seeing so much pain in the world.
What hurts the most isn’t just what’s been done to me — it’s how casually people hurt each other, often without even realizing it.
I know most people aren’t evil. I know they’re overwhelmed, afraid, distracted, and carrying their own wounds.
But caring still costs something.
And when you feel everything — when you can’t shut it off — it can feel like your spirit is being crushed by the weight of it all.
This verse reminds me that feeling this way doesn’t mean I’m failing.
It means I’m still human.
Verse — Micah 6:8:
“He has shown you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God?”
Interpretation:
God doesn’t call for cruelty or blind enforcement — He calls for justice with mercy.
My Voice:
I want secure borders. I want laws enforced. But I also want a system that protects human life, not one that treats people as if they don’t matter — whether they’re vulnerable citizens or immigrants. We should do better — we must do better.
