I think how? Then i look around and see nobody’s coming to my rescue and i just need help not a rescue. Not to be told what to do. I think it’s just getting old for lots

To feel so sure God has a path for you, to help others like me. Then i think what a fool, you are nothing and i’m not effective at anything now. Nobody listens to me, i seem to bother people more. It’s hard to quit, to throw in and accept my life will be surviving off minimal and alone. It doesn’t seem like living but what can i do. It’s gonna suck, i can’t even ask God for more. or from family because it’s not help and i can’t be dependent nothing. I am starting to feel like i need to shut up, and accept i’m alone and screwed. i’m very sad, disappointed in people but also doubting everything about myself and what I’ve been through and God‘s gonna have to help me again or I just I don’t know how I’m making it and I’m so tired. Like I can’t even I’m supposed to go to the doctor for blood work and stuff I can’t even get out of bed. I have been well you know what what’s the matter what’s the matter if I do physical therapy and doctors people are so fucked. They don’t have money in this country and we don’t do there enough. We do the wrong things and I’m not talking about for me. I feel bad for other peoplebecause it’s very hard and a lot of people have. I feel like I have nothing but I know there’s people with less than me so I have something as much as I don’t like it.