I can’t get past Snow in about politics with half my family but get them to be more helpful. I made the decision to come back. I feel like God has me where I’m supposed to be but it sucks. And I wanna run. I just don’t like playing gameslike I have to like almost be like manipulative to like help people. It’s lame.
For a few of you will see me. I appreciate it. I really do. I can’t even look at people’s post. I can’t interact. I think with some of the things I got from my family here. Just got let down again. But kind of makes me a little more resolved. But I can barely like my mind. I’m so physically weak. I’m getting work with physical therapy. But I have like a lot of atrophy I guess I sat around too long and I gotta just get my cardio up first my strength. I don’t have much so if I get on specially after I’ve again had a little meltdown. I swear it’s not like some mental breakdown. It’s just the brain damage overload. Seeing all the oh poor Joe Biden and no, I’m just thinking fuck you. I felt so angry and then I feel like that’s not how God wants me, but who am I? I just kind of shut everybody out but and I don’t wanna post. I feel like if I’m not gonna be respectful and be able to look at people’s post. I can’t for sure. Can’t you know obviously those people that just want to see what our I’ve been doing it for a long timeI had totally understand. I inspire people a little more face-to-face, but in the written language, I know I’m just annoying again. I annoy myself too.
it’s almost amazing how people run from me how people turn from me and on me a few people have seen me for a little bit like on here some of you specifically Mark he gave me money couple times others of you too. I don’t want money but like I have the best nonprofit that I need help with and it’s a pretty great investment I think.
If the people who run our systems were truly honest, they’d admit this:
they’ve made life so hard for so many people that “choice” starts to disappear.
When survival becomes suffering, offering an exit isn’t compassion — it’s a way to avoid fixing what’s broken.
A society that makes life unbearable and then calls death a solution isn’t merciful. It’s irresponsible.
Verse — Psalm 34:18
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
Interpretation:
This verse isn’t about weakness — it’s about wounds. God draws near not to the loud, the proud, or the untouched, but to those whose spirits are worn down by pain, grief, and compassion for suffering they can’t ignore.
My Voice / What This Is for Me:
My body has been hurt, and my soul feels exhausted from seeing so much pain in the world.
What hurts the most isn’t just what’s been done to me — it’s how casually people hurt each other, often without even realizing it.
I know most people aren’t evil. I know they’re overwhelmed, afraid, distracted, and carrying their own wounds.
But caring still costs something.
And when you feel everything — when you can’t shut it off — it can feel like your spirit is being crushed by the weight of it all.
This verse reminds me that feeling this way doesn’t mean I’m failing.
It means I’m still human.
Verse — Micah 6:8:
“He has shown you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God?”
Interpretation:
God doesn’t call for cruelty or blind enforcement — He calls for justice with mercy.
My Voice:
I want secure borders. I want laws enforced. But I also want a system that protects human life, not one that treats people as if they don’t matter — whether they’re vulnerable citizens or immigrants. We should do better — we must do better.
