Dramatic title for the two or three that will see this🤣I get this feeling every once in a while where I’m like death scares me and it’s an overwhelming feeling. And I think it’s partially my brain damage like I have repetitive patterns things I remember I don’t remember. And I’ve soaked in so much information just running around the country the last few years you have no idea and that’s why I always say I gotta get some of the shit out. Or and then there’s some God stuff going on like we’ve talked about. Again still difficult for me and maybe it is just that I’ve taken in so much seen so much firsthand met so many people still talk to so many people. Then I kinda slow down. I realize again it’s the I made this promise to God also a way that I say to people sometimes it could be just wanting to tie up things could be children that you’re a strange from or a sibling. Or best friend and as time goes on, it’s you know it’s a time old story right. I love using that one. If you know me, you know what I’m trying to say right now. I’m tired and I did a little bit of THC tonight. I needed it. They’re very stressful situation. I have tried both and I make the same argument about marijuana and I just get tired of making it, but I won’t be or I didn’t do it as much because I’m the same person but I’m a little more rough when I used to do this a lot more and I felt a lot better but I was more active and I was working out every day and that was the thing that blew my mind there was no hangover there was no nothing and it got me to bed pain-free way better than Pharma and that’s why it shouldn’t because I’m I’m in pain and this actually takes the pain and it’s like I’ve got so much negative about it that I think I forgot that I actually I’m not just a stoner. It was what my doctor finally got me to take after three years and I was off their paying stuff in months but whatever the pain scale is they were very surprised that I didn’t cave in and after like 2 1/2 years they got me to try pot. It changed my life. Now if I could do and get all the other things that I need and still do my nonprofit that I wanna do and do my physical therapy and my personal training so I can be the example that I wanna be. I have no problem with it and I believe it’s a plant. I believe it’s a gift from God. I believe the evil people didn’t want us to have this simple plant cause we wouldn’t eat all their shit. I mean it’s a theory