i guess from my mouth, was in my mouth and cheek. Just posting here to get out. i think my trap is, i feel God and important things to do. Yet i’m failing, so i put pressure on myself. I know i’m sick and can’t really do much so i i’m just trying to figure out how how I can live and do what I need to do to help people. They’re also not much help left for me. My family is not rich. Also, I can’t take help from some places so I’m trying to figure it out. It just sucks hurting all the time. It gets annoying and tiring. Help me please God, i will work my butt off i know what to do. Sometimes i think maybe i can die good and make some difference, but that’s just me. I know i’m just an old broken guy in a trailer, with dreams and i feel the world the good and bad. i see how and what change is needed like others and i want to help. But we don’t always get what we want. It’s the God part, i feel like i’m failing him. So weird ssying that still.
it’s almost amazing how people run from me how people turn from me and on me a few people have seen me for a little bit like on here some of you specifically Mark he gave me money couple times others of you too. I don’t want money but like I have the best nonprofit that I need help with and it’s a pretty great investment I think.
If the people who run our systems were truly honest, they’d admit this:
they’ve made life so hard for so many people that “choice” starts to disappear.
When survival becomes suffering, offering an exit isn’t compassion — it’s a way to avoid fixing what’s broken.
A society that makes life unbearable and then calls death a solution isn’t merciful. It’s irresponsible.
Verse — Psalm 34:18
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
Interpretation:
This verse isn’t about weakness — it’s about wounds. God draws near not to the loud, the proud, or the untouched, but to those whose spirits are worn down by pain, grief, and compassion for suffering they can’t ignore.
My Voice / What This Is for Me:
My body has been hurt, and my soul feels exhausted from seeing so much pain in the world.
What hurts the most isn’t just what’s been done to me — it’s how casually people hurt each other, often without even realizing it.
I know most people aren’t evil. I know they’re overwhelmed, afraid, distracted, and carrying their own wounds.
But caring still costs something.
And when you feel everything — when you can’t shut it off — it can feel like your spirit is being crushed by the weight of it all.
This verse reminds me that feeling this way doesn’t mean I’m failing.
It means I’m still human.
Verse — Micah 6:8:
“He has shown you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God?”
Interpretation:
God doesn’t call for cruelty or blind enforcement — He calls for justice with mercy.
My Voice:
I want secure borders. I want laws enforced. But I also want a system that protects human life, not one that treats people as if they don’t matter — whether they’re vulnerable citizens or immigrants. We should do better — we must do better.
