i’m watching a video and it’s about the nuisance of the homeless in San Francisco. It’s so bad. They have an app that shows where poop is around town. And I was starting to feel annoyed.
then I just keep going back to what kind of society do we live in? What’s wrong with us? And I don’t care who or what you are in society. If I ever have a place where I can make a difference. I’m gonna always try to put myself in the position of the most vulnerable all the time. I do a pretty good job of it.
I start to feel sorry for myself and makes it more difficult with the memory issue with the brain thing, but still not an excuse. It just takes some repetition for me and until it eventually holds. I should be so thankful what I have for what I have instead I’m thinking about what I don’t have. It just dawns on me, but I’ll forget and I think sometimes you guys tell me this. I get irritated and I think about now I tell my son he’s learning it. Remind me that I said that I told him. You do put up some walls and you have some triggers with brain injury and I’m really protective of other people because it’s kind of brutal and hard to understand you can’t understand it unless you go through it and I don’t ever want anybody to go through it. Andsome people you know what I’m talking about.
it’s almost amazing how people run from me how people turn from me and on me a few people have seen me for a little bit like on here some of you specifically Mark he gave me money couple times others of you too. I don’t want money but like I have the best nonprofit that I need help with and it’s a pretty great investment I think.
If the people who run our systems were truly honest, they’d admit this:
they’ve made life so hard for so many people that “choice” starts to disappear.
When survival becomes suffering, offering an exit isn’t compassion — it’s a way to avoid fixing what’s broken.
A society that makes life unbearable and then calls death a solution isn’t merciful. It’s irresponsible.
Verse — Psalm 34:18
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
Interpretation:
This verse isn’t about weakness — it’s about wounds. God draws near not to the loud, the proud, or the untouched, but to those whose spirits are worn down by pain, grief, and compassion for suffering they can’t ignore.
My Voice / What This Is for Me:
My body has been hurt, and my soul feels exhausted from seeing so much pain in the world.
What hurts the most isn’t just what’s been done to me — it’s how casually people hurt each other, often without even realizing it.
I know most people aren’t evil. I know they’re overwhelmed, afraid, distracted, and carrying their own wounds.
But caring still costs something.
And when you feel everything — when you can’t shut it off — it can feel like your spirit is being crushed by the weight of it all.
This verse reminds me that feeling this way doesn’t mean I’m failing.
It means I’m still human.
Verse — Micah 6:8:
“He has shown you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God?”
Interpretation:
God doesn’t call for cruelty or blind enforcement — He calls for justice with mercy.
My Voice:
I want secure borders. I want laws enforced. But I also want a system that protects human life, not one that treats people as if they don’t matter — whether they’re vulnerable citizens or immigrants. We should do better — we must do better.
